sleepless night...

I can't sleep tonight. Sometimes I cannot settle my mind. I tend to think too much, especially when it's time to lay my head in respite. Most nights it's easy to put my thoughts to rest. Tonight is a different story. I want to be anywhere but here, to escape to some place untouched where no one actually knows me and it's a fresh start. Altered. My heart is longing for unfamiliar. My soul is weary of the mundane. I'm ready to move on to something untrodden. My head fills with thoughts of unknown and foreign. There is abrupt excitement in the idea of this, but do I truly understand what all this entails?

I've had a hard time being back in LaGrange--Georgia--America, where everything is familiar and known to me. Things have been bustling since my return from my trip and I am not fond of hectic. I never have been. I enjoy my free time. There are moments when I am partial to being idle--and I truly enjoy all it has to offer. Being too busy seems to make me unpleasant. Resentful. Indignant. I've become corrosive with the accustomed and right now, I just want to leave it trailing.

But I can't, not now anyway. These past few weeks, God has reminded me of 1 Cor. 7:17 :
each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him.

For whatever reason, God has appointed me here, in this place, in this season. He has reminded me that He is loyal. I must serve Him where He calls me and understand that it is an honor; a privilege to be surrounded by familiarity in this time and to be thankful of His knowledge of what is best for me. I cannot complain, for He has called me here.